Schizophrenia????? Do I have it? or something similar?

I am not a doctor... But I am 14 too and I think that if you are not lying than you actually do have schizophrenia and you are suicidal.... Don't do anything to yourself!!!!!!! You are not a bad person and don't punish yourself, you can change, and those shadows and figures are not real they are not you!!! Believe that and everything will change