I dont want to have kids because I think im ugly?

im a 20 year old male. I think im unattractive, even though ive been called handsome. I just dont see what others see.Im not sure of i have a condition or not. Sometimes i get mad at my parents for having me and i blame my ugliness on them secretly. I love them tho very much. It is because of this that i never want to have kids of my own because i wouldnt wanna be that selfish and possibly have my kids tho thru the same dilema as me. i know this isnt exactly normal or whatever but its how i feel. Im not socially awkward, i have plenty of friends and im a fun person but i just dont want to have kids. How weird am I?